Sunday, September 5, 2010

Please Excuse My Absence (and More Importantly, My Big Head)

It's been a long time since I've blogged.  Up to this point, I had a good lecture waiting for myself on the back burner of my mind.  I should write.  I should have a more interesting life to write about.  When did I become so boring and empty of things to say?  And la la la.  But you know?  I'm glad I took a break.

I started this blog because I thought there needed to be more good news in print.  Because I knew there was much to be thankful for that seldom gets written about and sometimes, for negative-thinking little ones like me, seldom even talked about. 

But...somewhere along the line I started thinking more about making myself sound interesting and living a life worthy of a good post.  Discontentment is a hungry beast to whom gratitude is like candy.  No wonder I ran out of things to say.

Today I stopped thinking about how I really should write something, and took time to read what everyone else has been writing (I had been avoiding this out of some weird sort of amateur writer's/crafter's guilt).  I was shocked to see what my oldest friend has produced since the last time I checked her blog, and more shocked still to find that a friend halfway around the world whom she has never met found her blog through mine and made it a favorite...how a dear friend in Austin asked me the other day about a dear friend in Montana (and now that I remember, vice versa!) and how we are all so profoundly connected...(Using the word 'profound' always makes things seem less profound to me...like when you tell someone you love them and you know it only scratches the surface of what you really want to convey). 

Anyway, I guess the only way I can say it is to say that taking it all in today made me feel so lucky.  Here I have been spending so much time thinking about myself and what I am becoming that I have neglected to simply marvel at what a glorious cast of characters I have been plopped down into.  I am lucky to know you.  (And there I go scratching the surface again).

5 comments:

One Crazy Mom said...

Wahoo! The long awaited come back. Have I ever told you that I find you infinitely interesting? You creativity and craftiness are inspiring to me (read you make me feel guilty for not getting my sewing machine out more). In the words of the great doctor...
"Today you are You, that is truer than true. There is no one alive who is Youer than You."

I love you Erin. And now you've got me scratching the surface.

christyjean said...

I'm so happy to see that you are back! The blogging world is a better place with you in it!!

Betherann said...

:)

Celebrate Life said...

I am so glad you are back - I REALLY missed you!!!!

Elizabeth said...

I too am very happy you've returned to the blogging world. I think you are very interesting and wish I had much more time to chat with you. :) You are a great writer and I genuinely enjoy your blog and 'hearing' what you have to say.